In the process

I'm in the process of healing... but another pain comes..i'm not yet done but my heart,still is burning... can't do anything but to be silent. can't show tears 'cause of my fears of being tortured.... but i know in the end i'll survive when i've become successful every body would want to live the life i have!

'am i? 'am i not?

Am i? or 'am i not? when can you say that the heart is already healed?when can you say that you are already fixed?when can you say that you've already forgiven the person who have hurted you before? when can you say that you're love for that certain person is already gone?how can you say that you're already done? hi! i'm jade the former writer a big shot of life... before i had so many hatred about different kinds of people...as you can see in my blog i was so mad about the world i want everything to give me the same attention that i have given them.. life was unfair for me...i wanted it to revolve around my hands..i wanted to be in-control of everything...making myself see that i was the one who they needed the most...but then i realized that, i was the only one who is making myself suffer.... i was so desperate to make them work though i can make things for myself alone...that's when i thought to myself that i shouldn't be minding them... i have a lot of tings to discover 'bout myself...and one thing i knew is that the world is letting me handle everything because i wanted to... that it was so mad at me because they felt out-smarted...then there my heart was crying 'cause i felt so used,that it came up to the point that i have given up almost everything....i was almost empty..
and people didn't care about that...'cause there minding their own lives so that's when i realized why should i be crying if i can make a difference and why should i mind others if i myself is not fixed...emotions will pull me down...success would never come if i'll be affected to everything that they say.and life would never be fruitful if you hated everything ...'cause like what they say "the church will never run out of hypocrites" so you must learn to live with it..For you yourself alone had already practiced hypocrisy!